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The disc has a sexy vinyl look and a black underside.
Everything is created by myself so there will be lots of imperfections, but you get a thingy that's handmade with love and care c:
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This track is my darkest work so far.
It deals with my state of mind during the first lockdown measures in 2020 while also experiencing horrible symptoms of heavy metal toxicity and leftover neurological damage from years of Seroquel use.
It was, and to a certain extent still is, one of the darkest periods of my life where I experienced being able to watch myself drift into insanity.
My body itching, my muscles spasming, cut off from human contact for weeks on end.
It was horrible.
Creating music was one of the few things I was able to do during that time. This song came out of the darkest pits of despair and insanity I experienced.
It was one of the few things that helped me survive this mess.
When you're in a similar situation, keep going!
Things may change. You may change.
My fuckin' mind is distorted
27-year-old fetus, sometimes wish I'd been aborted
oh well, gotta work with what I've been given
gotta make it work, make some art while I'm still kickin'
still livin'
still frickin' tryna make some music with my will written
entirely in rhymes 'cause I'm still spittin'
still trippin'
off the drugs I took ten years ago, haters still bitchin'
my body's still itchin'
but you're still listenin'
'cause I'm still rippin' motherfuckin' fresh rhymes
'bout the worst and best times, haters wanna grab my
crown of rap king? That's mine! like my fuckin' sex life
there will be no rest time starting from the next line
I would like to express that I took a fuckin' excessive
amount of drugs in my lifetime
that's why I'm not in the right mind
to properly address my thoughts and feelings
which is why I bide my time
and rest and heal my body while I write my rhymes
to try and set my mind alright
this time that's mine will be defined
by days and nights of artist's grind
sound from a former addict's mind
through panic and pandemic times
I keep on droppin' dope shit
my rhymes are fuckin' tasteless
like they got the COVID
that's why they're so sick
and so fuckin' infectious
I'm spittin lines directly in your face while I rap this
motherfuckers tryna test this, tryna best this
but all they're comin' up with is some wack shit
'n that's it.
n' honestly - music's just a fuckin' part of me
that's probably not worth too fuckin' much in this economy
I'm not yet where I wanna be
but trust me man, I'm gonna be
methodically I write my fuckin' story down to honor me
and probably just paint a little smile on my face
maybe yours too - while my body twitches, hurts and aches
Instead of wastin' days puffin' super lemon haze
nowadays I open Serum, and I drop the fuckin' bass
just to keep back the madness
it's the only thing that I can do to keep back the madness
I do it just to keep back the madness
the only thing that I can do to keep back the madness
anyway, that's what I'm doing
during all these trying times
even though I hate the phrasing
why can't you just fucking say it outright
that there's a motherfucking virus at the door
everybody scared to say the name
rename this shit to voldemort
oh, there's more
politics pretend to do something
to reassert the baseless assumption
that they're in control
everywhere there's fuckin' riots on the streets
and we only got the choice of which liar to believe
late-stage capitalism, oh isn't it fun?
the war on drugs is over 'cause the drugs have clearly won
party 'til the cows come home
because this place is fucking done
our society is based on rome
and rome is dead and gone!
so what does that mean for us, well
time to repeat to ourselves
this is no time to retreat to our shells
but to do shit
I for one am gonna use it
to sit down and make some motherfucking music
track of time, I'll lose it
hazy mind, barely fucking lucid
constantly confused, shit
guess that's what lockdown blues is
i move shit
shakin' rhymes around in my head
piles of clothes on my bed
fuckin' pacing in my room which
seems to grow ever smaller every night that I'm awake
time perception twisted, is it night or is it fucking day?
I keep my fuckin' blinds down, staying unaware
I don't know anymore and frankly I don't fucking care
about the outside world, at least that's what I'm pretending
to feel, it's probably okay
but in my head the world is ending
so I'm sending
this message to whomever's understanding
enough to hear and care about my fuckin' rambling
so I'm standing at the edges of my personal abbyss
fuckin' ascending to the cliffs
watching my own mind as it slips
twists itself in wicked shapes like it is dancing
I smile, take a deep breath and then sing...
My mate BolPaVoX makes awesome dark and drony ambient industrial!
Deep psychedelic shaman vibes on this one.
One of my favorite albums to meditate, work out and have sex to.
11/10, best album I own. Orrphoiz
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